I have been feeling......well, very introspective for the past few months...a little philosophical and in need of meaningful and connected personal interaction. I was telling this to a friend last night.... when I quickly admitted that I might also drop a blue streak of profanities at any minute and yell at a kid too (not so introspective) ...but for the most part...I feel like I am in some kind of contemplative mode. Its a little like when you're doing a puzzle and towards completion the pieces just start to move themselves into place one at a time until you can clearly see the picture. I was thinking yesterday what do I really have to worry about....I'm just gonna go with it... my life that is...and stop spinning in circles... Just watch...I am about to really come alive.Off to DO JUST ONE THING AT A TIME even if its folding the mountain of clean laundry that sits in the middle of the family room. Gotta get that done before the king of his castle gets home from an out of town business trip.
First Posted 1/22/10
Oh geez..I am ALWAYS doing this. I sometimes wonder why I can't just relax and enjoy life. Why is it that I'm always searching or seeking or contemplating...blah blah blah.
ReplyDeleteThe Idaho weather has been playing tricks with my contemplating side of the brain too. I am scheming, dreaming and trying to problem solve my life all while sitting in my office staring out into the grey skies.
ReplyDeleteI have much that I would love to accomplish. Yet, my personal dreams continue to sit idle under the covers because I percieve that I have no time to make them a reality. Well that and fear of starting and then not finishing.
What I need is a good bottle of wine, a night of carefree laughter and a moment free from the constant onslaught of parenting modifications.
I am with you girlfriend. Mary
I miss you! Just checking in to say hi. How are things? Wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you.
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